Everything is fiiiine

 Or is it?

No. Everything is chaos. 

I hate him. 

I hate him. 

I hate him.

I HATE HIM!

I can't believe I hate him more than elves, more than Sly.

He is stupid, powerful maybe, but still stupid.

WHAT POWERFUL MAGE CAN'T EVEN USE MAGIC TO KNOW IF SOMEONE LIES??? DO YOU EVEN HAVE A BRAIN???? DO YOU THINK TORTURING AND KILLING THE SOULS OF THE ONLY GROUP OF PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT WILL MAKE ME TALK?!

I honestly just would have given him the info IF I knew it. 

Ocean heart crystal. What the fuck is that. I've had those... necrosis on me since as far as I can remember. So IF I ever touched that, I might have been a baby??? Fresco is an idiot. 

Also I probably hate my father even more than Sly now too. He lied to me? I'm not that surprised. But I'm starting to wonder if tried to make experients with that stupid water crystal and me. What does it do? Am I slowly transforming into something? Mutating maybe? No. That would be awesome and I'm not that lucky. I'm probably just dying slowly. Well... everyone dies slowly every day but I'm rotting as well. Hahaha. 

No one knows what it is. And I DIDNT EVEN LOOT GOOD INFORMATION IN FRESCO'S TINY LAB!

Where is Sly when we need him? Useless elf.

All that led to a good thing though! We have a dragon! Ok the dragon is an abyssal beast that lives WITHIN Taos and is very violent. BUT it listens to Tiberius. SOOOO it's an ally? I guess? 

Tiberius said it would be idiotic to work together with it, so I suppose we can only use it by controlling it. I don't really care as long as it's useful.

We managed to get out of the pink castle alive, Celadon included, and we now reached an halfling rebel village. It's so funny imagining those tiny... people? Things? Living beings? Trying to rebel against Fresco's metal beasts. Hahahahahahahahahaha.

With Tiberius' incredible talent in smooth talking, we got info and even help from them. In exchange we have to... literally just do what we already wanted to do. So win win. 

If Fresco is still after me though, maybe we could use that as a distraction? I don't think Ellie and Celadon would approve but... I don't have one of those witch curses so I'm dispensable no? It could bring danger to them too. Might as well get rid of the source of the danger? No? I honestly have no idea why they keep me around at this point.

I really do feel bad about what happened to Celadon and I'm releived we could save her. All that because I didn't know the information. I need to do better. I'm a very bad lier but if I can find as much info as possible maybe next time Fresco wont try to freaking kill people. I'm not close to Celadon personally but she is part of the group. No one touches the group. 

Like... I have my favourite people. Tiberius, Ren, Ellie, Lily, Mia. Ok Mia is a cat. Still counts.

I will probably get to know the others too. And I might end up liking them more as well. So, no one. Touches. Them. 

Heck even the elf. Sly is OUR elf. He is an annoying pervert, but it might also be a facade. I really hope it is. He think I am as disgusting as I think he is. At least we have a mutual feeling about eachother. I kind of miss the times where he was absent... but I must admit that it IS funny to annoy him. And disgust him. Hehehehehehehehehe. I'll have to find creative ways to have fun with him. 

Enough about the elf, I have more important things to think about. 

We will have to intercept a shipment and kidnap one of Fresco's beasts so I can study it. It will be fabulous! I hope we can do it without damaging it too much. 

And when we manage to get in that prison and beat the crap out of Fresco, I want to kill him. So. Slowly. OH I need to know what the crystal is first. But after that, it's bye bye Fresco. At least in my wildest fantasies. 

For now we try to find as much information about the black mountain prison as possible. This island is so weird. Everything is weird. I wish I was a powerful mage. At least I would make things that are useful. Maybe... Or maybe I would just make giant metal spiders and a lot of useful tiny beholders. And be alone in my lab with Mia and make strange potions. I would like to have a lab. 

I miss the basement. I miss my home. When I didn't know anything and I was just having fun making bombs and potions. I miss.... Having a place to go back to. That's it. I think that I might not want to be alone after all. Do I even have friends? How does someone make friends? I should read a book about that. 

I don't think Tiberius considers me as a friend. I dont think he wants friends. And that's ok. I respect that. I dont think Ellie wants any friends either. Ren seems to want Taos as a friend. Lilly, I don't know. Celadon seems too concerned about what is happening to even think about friendship. Kite is a dog for now so who knows . He is more silent and detatched from what I saw. Sly... is an elf. And even if he was not an elf he seems to keep this perverted funny funny attitude on. So I don't even know if he is a friend pitential. 

So conclusion, I think we are all very lonely. We work together, but to one gives hugs to anyone. Ok I have a hug to Sly but that was because I wanted to annoy him. But did make me realize that no one is close to anyone. Maybe I'm just homesick or stressed. I should focus on killing Fresco.